So there I was, my parents decided to take me to the temple for the first time. We usually prayed at home but I had no idea the deeper meaning of it. I know there was god, my mother told me stories. I just didn't really care because I thought it didn't apply to me. I quote from my mom (In broken english though lol) "God is just a God"
My conflict: Well, its been 9 years now, well does it?
Basically, I'm a born Hindu. I believe in hinduism and reincarnation strongly. But in these days I'm "losing" it. I'm not losing my faith, but my irrational brain is having a LOT doubt. I immersed myself into texts and different religions. I'm currently reading a book called "Night" by Elie Wiesel, a holocaust survivor. In his book, basically he just bags heavily on his god because his god wasn't there to help him. Does this mean the Jewish god (Whoever he is, I don't pay attention to Judaism) doesn't exsit? Does it mean that Jews are actaully hated people? I think not-And my mind agrees on this opinion. (Ok, I'm getting really distracted at this moment)
Now, in my new religion-Its basically a "slot" thing going on. I insert Hinduism-Because I follow it. This "slot" religion basically adds on some extra stuff:(NOTE THIS IS A RELIGION I MADE TO COPE WITH THE CONFLICTING BATTLES INSIDE-IT IS IT HELP ME, IDK IF IT MAY OR MAY NOT WORK FOR U BUT I DON"T RECOMMEND THIS
Here is the first bit:
All gods co-exist. This is from the Kane Chronicles camo-apperance of the Olympian gods, how that one guy (Who is a god? IDK I havent read these books-Just Percy Jackson) says that the Egyptian gods have to stay away from the Greek gods. This is how I took it: That all gods people pray to (Just a few selected very big ones) All co-exist and have their own domain. This makes perfect sense to me, because how the Hindu gods could have their own Domain in India. While the Chistan God has uh his? domain in whereever? (That religion is TOO BIG). This could be the reason why the Bible never came down to the Hindus of India. I don't care what those radicals say- We hindus DON"T want to change our religion-no matter how "true" it is or whatever. Christianity never came to India, so there is no reason for me or anybody else to believe in it. This religion probably didn't come to India because it wasn't its domain, it couldn't live there (I'm using IT again..I'm very sorry).
And here is an idea-The fight for discoverying the new world was like a fight for a domian. The US could be the first place where all of the religions in the world can just share a domain.
I don't know if the gods are maybe in conflict here or what. Maybe that could be the reason for 2012 (Which I will get into a anther blog post of) Or why the ecnomoy is down greatly...
Here is my conflict though, the idea of maybe the god's power is determined by how much people believe in them (Peter Pan). Could this mean that Gods can die? (Freddy Cougar, Nightmare on Elm Street) Just by not praying to them? Does praying to them give them strength? (Percy Jackson)
I want these questions answered...
So thats about all I have for today. Again, this religion is something I make up on the go to cope with all of the ideas flooding my head. I'm not a true strong believer of my own religion because I'm afraid to believe..
My conflict: Well, its been 9 years now, well does it?
Basically, I'm a born Hindu. I believe in hinduism and reincarnation strongly. But in these days I'm "losing" it. I'm not losing my faith, but my irrational brain is having a LOT doubt. I immersed myself into texts and different religions. I'm currently reading a book called "Night" by Elie Wiesel, a holocaust survivor. In his book, basically he just bags heavily on his god because his god wasn't there to help him. Does this mean the Jewish god (Whoever he is, I don't pay attention to Judaism) doesn't exsit? Does it mean that Jews are actaully hated people? I think not-And my mind agrees on this opinion. (Ok, I'm getting really distracted at this moment)
Now, in my new religion-Its basically a "slot" thing going on. I insert Hinduism-Because I follow it. This "slot" religion basically adds on some extra stuff:(NOTE THIS IS A RELIGION I MADE TO COPE WITH THE CONFLICTING BATTLES INSIDE-IT IS IT HELP ME, IDK IF IT MAY OR MAY NOT WORK FOR U BUT I DON"T RECOMMEND THIS
Here is the first bit:
All gods co-exist. This is from the Kane Chronicles camo-apperance of the Olympian gods, how that one guy (Who is a god? IDK I havent read these books-Just Percy Jackson) says that the Egyptian gods have to stay away from the Greek gods. This is how I took it: That all gods people pray to (Just a few selected very big ones) All co-exist and have their own domain. This makes perfect sense to me, because how the Hindu gods could have their own Domain in India. While the Chistan God has uh his? domain in whereever? (That religion is TOO BIG). This could be the reason why the Bible never came down to the Hindus of India. I don't care what those radicals say- We hindus DON"T want to change our religion-no matter how "true" it is or whatever. Christianity never came to India, so there is no reason for me or anybody else to believe in it. This religion probably didn't come to India because it wasn't its domain, it couldn't live there (I'm using IT again..I'm very sorry).
And here is an idea-The fight for discoverying the new world was like a fight for a domian. The US could be the first place where all of the religions in the world can just share a domain.
I don't know if the gods are maybe in conflict here or what. Maybe that could be the reason for 2012 (Which I will get into a anther blog post of) Or why the ecnomoy is down greatly...
Here is my conflict though, the idea of maybe the god's power is determined by how much people believe in them (Peter Pan). Could this mean that Gods can die? (Freddy Cougar, Nightmare on Elm Street) Just by not praying to them? Does praying to them give them strength? (Percy Jackson)
I want these questions answered...
So thats about all I have for today. Again, this religion is something I make up on the go to cope with all of the ideas flooding my head. I'm not a true strong believer of my own religion because I'm afraid to believe..
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